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开学第一周

开学第一周呢 节奏比我想象的要快呢
事情一件一件接憧而来

  • 熟悉每门课的要求
  • 社团安排任务
  • info essay
  • networking
  • financial issue
最近真的有点累，难受
这两天身体的不适和每天早上六点就醒 真的让我的一天从早上就开始难受，没节奏
what it feels like？
感觉什么都不想做 原本在早上可以干很多事的 但今天和昨天都因为睡眠问题而不能做到 然后更让人糟心的是 即使睡的很多 起来了仍然感到极度困倦，什么事情都不想干，让我感到更加焦虑，难受，
还有·就是身体的难受。最近膝盖一直隐隐作痛，在那天下午和小车弄完之后，右腰前侧的皮肤在触碰的时候感到疼痛。然后今天早上起床还流鼻血。加上前列腺的问题，让我感觉我的身体已经大不如从前。觉得自己好像摇摇欲坠似的，

好焦虑啊

课嘛 最焦虑的还是373 和 101吧。373因为这几天不舒服，不熟悉课的情况下落下了个quick check 感到很焦虑。
101 的节奏很快，今天课上写github也绕了绕。 

大概就是很担心 自己跟不上节奏吧
心里那最恐怖 黑暗的图像是什么呢
  • 自己跟不上101,373，落下重要的课 和assignment，然后滚雪球
应该是我又想多了吧 自己很棒的！小车都说我很棒呢！ 

最重要的是 这样的事情 从来就没有发生过 

记得上个q上200 和 201的时候也是 
200一开始漏了好几个participation，201也不知道怎么用git
然后都figure it out 啦
最后都拿了4.0！

可能是每进入一个新的阶段都会感到焦虑 紧张，有时还会无助
但是慢慢来吧！ Trust the process and withness the progress 

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