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昨日 & 今日小记

心情：活泼，开心

开心的事

下午上车逛街很开心
那种知道next destination is gonna be amazing 的感觉
还有那种在路上的感觉 我特别喜欢
好像我们是很久没有去经历新的东西了

不开心的事

早上还是会觉得空虚 不知道为什么
like why am going to get up? 
不知道起床第一件事干什么


昨天看了最精彩的lol比赛

7:30 睡到 12点
直接去bellevue
mmp我真的购物欲好强 看到什么都想试试
perhaps i should shop with a girl

晚上的kizuki拉面也好棒


然后回来
开了个会，赶了due
赶了due 填了linkedin

其实是很充实的



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